Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Christmas Update

It has been far too long since I posted an update here. Please accept my sincerest apologies! There are not good excuses.
 
This past year has been full of surprises for me. I thought that I would have surely returned to Haiti by now. I thought I would have helped lead a short term missions team there through A Child’s Hope. I thought I would have finished raising the money for Hope Hill. I thought ACH would have broken ground for their academy already.
 
But I am so thankful to serve a God who is omniscient (all knowing.) His plan is always better than mine. My understanding is finite!
 
So what is happening in 2014? I continue to raise funds for A Child’s Hope. So far, $25,000 out of $70,000 has been raised. We’re only $10,000 away from the halfway mark! Even though the fundraising has gone slower than I expected, God has continued to provide.
 
I also hope to return to Haiti this summer, if God keeps the doors open. He so clearly closed the doors this past year. But I trust that He has burdened my heart for a reason, and I am willing to follow after Him wherever that leads. I am praying that He leads me back to Haiti sometime this year. J
 
A Child’s Hope continues to press on in their fundraising efforts. The money raised for Hope Hill is ultimately going towards their effort in Haiti, because we are working together for the same goal. ACH is planning their 2nd Annual Fundraising Gala in Houston, TX for April 4th. If you are interested in attending, you can visit their website and purchase tickets here.
 
Thank you all for your continued prayers for this initiative! I cannot wait to see how God works in 2014.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Mission


“God scatters to reunite.”

That quote came from the book I’ve been reading lately called “Finish the Mission” by John Piper and David Mathis. The discussion in the chapter was about the Gospel in the Old Testament, and the way that God scattered the nation of Israel on multiple occasions. In the New Testament, we also see the disciples being scattered into all the world in order to preach the gospel.

Biblically speaking, we have so many examples of people GOING in order to spread the gospel. We too, are called to GO outside of our comfort zones for His honor and glory. Even though we are sometimes baffled as to why God seems to break up a “good thing,” often it’s for a better thing! God scatters to reunite.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

An Adventure


“An adventure is only an inconvenience rightly considered. An inconvenience is only an adventure wrongly considered.”

--G.K. Chesterton

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Fundraising Update


Finally! A moment to post an update on Hope Hill and what’s going on with things! Life has been extremely busy lately, so I’ll keep this update short and sweet:

1.) Funds. I am still working to raise funds for Hope Hill, and the numbers have continued to go up! Later this week, I will update the thermometer on the right.

2.) Where Funds Go. As a result of our move to Texas and my partnership with A Child’s Hope, we now have a new place to direct funds! Rather than going through our church in Michigan, donations can now be made out to “A Child’s Hope” with “Hope Hill” in the memo line. Those checks can be mailed to:

A Child’s Hope
16545 Village Drive, Bldg A
Jersey Village, TX 77040

3.) Valencia. My precious little girl continues to do well in Haiti! With her sponsorship, she is now being tutored and is catching up in school. I am anxious to see her again, and am praying about a return trip to La Montagne in 2014.

That’s all for now! I appreciate all of you who are praying for this project! Soli Deo Gloria!

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Soon



Sorry if it seems like this blog died over the past few weeks! Life has been extremely busy, and I still haven’t been able to come up for air. I promise to post an update next week when things lull a little bit.

Meanwhile, I’ve been thinking about how much I miss this time, this place, and these people. I pray that in God’s timing, we will reunite, and return to Haiti together!

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Haitian Food



I miss Haitian food! I had been worried before we went to Haiti that it would be too spicy, but I think they toned it for us “Blan.” J As I have become more involved in foreign missions work, I am more and more grateful for the way my parents trained me in the area of food. Growing up, we were always required to eat a portion of everything, whether we liked it or not. Scientifically speaking, having enough exposure to a food, you will like it—or at least tolerate it—eventually.

I really think that happened for me! My motto now is “I’ll try anything once.” That attitude has served me well so far. In so many third-world countries, food is far more than food. It is the people’s way of showing hospitality. To refuse the food they prepare would be to refuse their generosity. And when they can barely afford to cook and eat themselves, it means even more to offer their precious food to a guest. That really puts food into perspective for me!

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Donkeys



Pa kite bourik pou bat makout.
“Don’t miss the donkey and beat the saddlebag.” Don’t blame the wrong one.

Livestock is seemingly everywhere in rural Haiti. Donkeys are a common means of transportation and cargo-carrying in third world countries. The donkey pictured in the photo above was tied in the lot beside the mission house we stayed at in Haiti. A few of the guys named her Maurice, and she was unfortunately on the receiving end of many team jokes. But she may have deserved them to some degree; you see, Maurice seemed to think that braying as loud as she possibly could at 5 a.m. was a great way to introduce herself to the team. We did not agree.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Fundraising Update!


As I enter into a new phase of life (post-high school), I have had to reevaluate a lot of things. One of those has been this blog. I am hoping to start a new blog to specifically chronicle the things I am doing to prepare for life, outside of the traditional college realm. I am still raising funds for Hope Hill, and intend to meet my goal of $70,000, through God’s strength.

Beginning next week, I will be posting on the Hope Hill blog once a week. The posts will vary, sometimes being an update, other times a Haitian proverb, or pictures another time. My goal is to keep my faithful readers up-to-date on the progress in Haiti, while still giving myself a bit more time to focus on other things.

Today, I am excited to announce a big jump in funds. For my high school graduation party, I asked guests to give towards Hope Hill in lieu of .gifts. As a result, over $2,500 was raised for the project!! That means our new total is $17,909! God is so good!

Monday, September 2, 2013

Guatemala Update


I can hardly believe the summer flew by so quickly! Anticipation has a way of moving time along. School is starting and the mission trip to Guatemala is already a month behind me . . .

While the time speeds on, the memories remain crisp and clear in my mind. Long eyelashes framing the brown eyes looking up at me. The shouts of school-children cheering on their classmates in a soccer match. Little arms wrapped around my neck in an embrace. Spanish and English words mixed together in worship of the King.

The primary purpose of our trip was to build the relationship between our church and student ministry and Pastor A and Fellowship Guatemala. We also built a relationship with Pastor D, the founder and president of Fellowship Guatemala.

When we arrived Sunday, we had the opportunity to participate in a worship service at a new church plant Pastor D has started. Monday through Thursday, we served alongside Pastor A at a public elementary school. We conducted a sports camp for the kids, and did devotions with them. Each afternoon was spent at the Opportunity Center started by Pastor A, where 35-40 students go to learn English though Rosetta Stone. One evening was spent at a small orphanage, where we interacted with a dozen children. Our week concluded with a day in Antigua, where we enjoyed sweet fellowship with our new Guatemalan friends.

The trip was not what I expected. God so clearly sent us there rather than Haiti, and I was expecting another “light bulb moment” like I had in Haiti. I came away from the trip with more questions than answers. But I serve a God who knows all the answers. The following quote from Corrie Ten Boom has been on my mind through all of this: “Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.”

I trust that in His timing, He will reveal the reasons behind this trip. In the meanwhile, I am prayerfully considering a return trip next summer, and possibly an internship. Pastor D’s family will be coming to visit the States in October, and I look forward to introducing them to the rest of my family. J

The work in Haiti continues, and I remain committed to seeing the orphanage built. I will take just one day at a time, and continue to follow wherever God leads, through every door He opens.

THANK YOU for your faithful support and prayers! You are enabling me to fulfill the calling God has placed on my life: the call to share the good news of Jesus Christ with the nations!

To read my day-by-day journal accounts of the Guatemala trip, click on the links below:

Friday, August 9, 2013

Haitian Proverb


Here is a good Haitian proverb:

Atansyon pa kapon.

“Careful isn’t cowardly.” Being cautious does not make you a coward.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Hold My Heart


This song has been on my heart since I returned from Guatemala. I hope to share more of an update on the trip later this week!

How long must I pray
Must I pray to You?
How long must I wait
Must I wait for You?
How long till I see Your face
See You shining through?

I'm on my knees
Begging You to notice me
I'm on my knees
Father, will You turn to me?

One tear in the driving rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the Maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart?

I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye
But if there's no other way
I'm done asking why

'Cause I'm on my knees
Begging You to notice me
I'm on my knees
Father, will You run to me, yeah

One tear in the driving rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart?

So many questions without answers
Your promises remain
I can't see but I'll take my chances
To hear You call my name
To hear You call my name

One tear in the driving rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart?
Hold my heart
Could You hold my heart?
Hold my heart


--“Hold My Heart” by Tenth Avenue North

Monday, August 5, 2013

Faces of Haiti: Created



The longer I live, the more I travel, the more people I meet, the more I feel that I was created for foreign missions work. I am created to share the hope of Christ with others, and worship Him by pouring my life out in service to Him.

Friday, August 2, 2013

Haitian Proverb


Here is a good Haitian proverb:

Avan ou monte bwa, gade si ou ka desann li.

“Before you climb a tree, look to see if you can climb down.” Make sure you know what you’re getting into.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

The Church

“Let me say clearly that I am not against new or modern [church] buildings. I am not so idealistic to think that every church should meet in houses or old supermarkets. But we have to ask ourselves: Are we investing the majority of our time and energy in the brick and mortar of our buildings while neglecting the biblical command to be the hands and feet of Jesus?”

--Johnny Carr in “Orphan Justice”

Monday, July 29, 2013

Faces of Haiti: Family



I can’t believe it’s been over a year since I saw this precious family! W and I are two of the sweetest people I know, and their kids were so adorable. I can’t wait to see how God uses their family to bring the hope of the Gospel to the people of La Montagne!

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Life


“God’s goal is not to make sure you’re happy. Life is not about your being comfortable, happy, successful and pain free. It is about becoming the man or woman God has called you to be. Life is not about you. It’s about God. He doesn’t exist to make us happy. We exist to bring Him glory.”

--Chuck Swindoll

Monday, July 22, 2013

Faces of Haiti: One Year



I can hardly believe that it has been a whole year since our family departed for Haiti! I never would have imagined all the changes that have taken place over the past year. We serve an amazing God! I had hoped to have been back to Haiti by now, but I trust in God’s timing. One day (hopefully soon!) I will return!

Friday, July 19, 2013

Haitian Proverb


Here is a slightly comical Haitian proverb:

Vant grangou fè lapriyè kout.

“A hungry belly makes a short prayer.” Let’s get to it. Cut to the chase. When you are in a hurry you take shortcuts.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Nothing


“God created the world out of nothing
And as long as we are nothing
He can make something out of us.”

--Martin Luther

Friday, July 12, 2013

Haitian Proverb


Here is another good Haitian proverb:

Pa koke makout ou pi wo pase men ou.

“Don’t hang your bag higher than your hand.” Don’t get into a situation that surpasses your ability.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Responsible


“I am just as guilty of judging the poor as anyone else. I’ve said things like, ‘Well, I’m sure they would just go buy some cigarettes or beer, and I don’t want to enable an addict,’ or, ‘They have government help,’ or, ‘They can always go down to the homeless shelter.’ But here’s the irony: We judge families who get government help while we fail to help those very same people. On top of that, we often advocate shutting down the very social programs that keep their kids from starving. If the government discontinued all welfare programs tomorrow, I’m not sure we would be ready, willing, or able to help all of the people in need in our communities.

We may tell ourselves, ‘It’s not my problem. I have to take care of my own family.’ But if Christians are not responsible to care for the needy, who is?”

--Johnny Carr in “Orphan Justice”

Monday, July 8, 2013

Faces of Haiti: Valencia

Valencia, her mother, and brother.

I was rather surprised to receive this picture from a friend who just got back from Haiti. Valencia’s mother is still alive! But she is mentally ill and pregnant. I’m not sure where her Mom has been, what she does, etc. but it’s one more piece to the puzzle of this little girl that has captivated my heart. I pray that somehow, God would reconcile this seemingly broken family to Himself.

Friday, July 5, 2013

Haitian Proverb


Here is another good Haitian proverb:

Pa mete pye nan tout soulye.

“Don’t put your foot in every shoe.” Don’t meddle with things that don’t concern you.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Fill


“Use me then, my Savior,
for whatever purpose and in whatever way you may require.
Here is my poor heart, an empty vessel;
fill it with your grace.

--D.L. Moody

Monday, July 1, 2013

Faces of Haiti: Reunited



While the above picture was taken last summer, I just saw a picture of these two today. After a whole year, M and T were finally reunited during another missions trip. These two had such a special friendship, similar to my relationship with Valencia. It makes me long for the day when I will finally be reunited with Valencia!

Friday, June 28, 2013

Haitian Proverb

Here is a Haitian proverb about power:
 
Ti nèg fè sa l’ kapab. Gran nèg fè sa l’ vle.
 
“The little guy does what he can. The big shot does what he wants.” Those without power don’t have the luxury of choice.

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

The Fall


I recently finished reading an excellent book called “When Helping Hurts: How to Alleviate Poverty Without Hurting the Poor . . . and Yourself” by Brian Fikkert and Steve Corbett. I thought I knew what to expect from reading the book, but I was challenged and convicted so much by reading it.

In one of the early chapters, the authors discuss the Fall and the effects on our lives today from that event. Throughout their book, they talk a lot about broken individuals and broken systems. In reality, the richest person in the world can simultaneously be the poorest person in the world and vice versa because poverty is so multi-faceted. The following quote really stood out to me:

“The fall really happened, and it is wreaking havoc in all of our lives. We are all broken, just in different ways. –Steve Corbett and Brian Fikkert in “When Helping Hurts”

Monday, June 24, 2013

Faces of Haiti: Prayer



Please take a moment to pray for a team from Michigan that will be ministering on La Montagne this week! Several members of the team went with me last summer, and others are good friends of mine. Please pray that God would use them to minister to the Haitian people, and that lives would be changed as a result of this trip!

Friday, June 21, 2013

Haitian Proverb

Here is another Haitian proverb:
 
Kouri pou lapli; tonbe nan gran rivyè.
 
“Run from the rain to fall into the river.” To flee from one disaster to a bigger one.
 

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Orphan Care


“The goal of orphan care is caring for orphans, not the good feelings we get from our generosity in building or supporting an orphanage. Orphan care is not about us; it’s about them.” –Johnny Carr in “Orphan Justice”

Monday, June 17, 2013

Faces of Haiti: Face-to-Face



“I hope to see you soon, and we will talk face to face. Peace to you. The friends here send their greetings. Greet the friends there by name.” 3 John 1:14

Friday, June 14, 2013

Haitian Proverb

Here is a good Haitian proverb about bad habits:
 
Bonbonou renmen se li ki fini ak kòb ou.
 
“The sweet you like is the one that finishes your money.” Bad habits are expensive.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Your Best

“Do not allow yourselves to be disheartened by any failure as long as you have done your best.” –Mother Teresa

Monday, June 10, 2013

Faces of Haiti: Ache


My heart aches to be with this little girl and to hold her again.

Friday, June 7, 2013

Haitian Proverb

Here is a good Haitian proverb about the present and the future:

Wè jodi a men sonje demen.
 
“See today, but remember tomorrow.” Live in the present, but plan for the future.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Optional

“Some things in life are optional and some are not.
Wearing shoes is optional. But eating is not.
Driving a car is optional. But once you choose the option, driving on the right-hand side of the road (here in America) is not.
Becoming a Christian is optional. But once you decide to ask Jesus Christ to take control of your life, involvement in world missions is no longer optional. I’m not saying that these things are impossible. You can choose to go without eating, but if you do, you must take the consequences. . . You can choose to drive on the left but you will pay fines and cause accidents.”
 
–Peter C. Wagner, On the Crest of the Wave (Glendale, Calif.: Regal, 1983), 5

Monday, June 3, 2013

Faces of Haiti: Stories


We met an innumerable amount of beautiful Haitian children last summer. Each face tells a story. Each child has experienced joy and pain. I only wish I knew more of their stories.

Friday, May 31, 2013

Haitian Proverb

This Haitian Creole Proverb is a good reminder that hard times fall on everyone:
 
Ri moun kout, men pa ri moun touni.
 
“Laugh at short people, but don’t laugh at naked people.” You may not be short but anyone could be naked.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Compassion

“By compassion we make others’ misery our own, and so, by relieving them, we relieve ourselves also.” –Thomas Browne, Sr.

Monday, May 27, 2013

Faces of Haiti: "Jeff"


“Jeff” was a precious boy we met on our trip to Haiti last summer. His smile lit up a room! I miss him.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Haitian Proverb


I know this is a little late, but here is a good Haitian proverb about Mothers:

Yo pa ka achte moso manman nan mache.

“One can’t buy a piece of mother in the market.” Mothers are irreplaceable.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

"Walking in Broken Shoes" Book Review



(Originally posted on www.7eagleswings.blogspot.com on May 17, 2013)

Recently, my Mom was spending some Amazon gift cards she received last year. She was so sweet and bought a little something for each of us. J She gave me a choice between 4 or 5 different missions-related books. I was so excited when my copy of “Walking in Broken Shoes” by Susan Magnuson Walsh arrived! I had never heard of the book until Mom mentioned it to me, but it sounded like my kind of book.

Susan Walsh—a pediatric nurse practitioner—led many short-term medical missions trips to Haiti prior to the earthquake in 2010. The first half of the book describes these trips. The book is written mostly in journal form, with lots of email updates and personal stories.

While I found the book interesting up to that point, my interest really piqued half-way through the book. Susan Walsh was in Haiti with a team during the January 2010 earthquake. She gives an incredible first-hand account of what the tremor felt like, the emotional responses to the quake, and the devastation felt in Pétionville. Thankfully no one on their team was hurt, but immediately following the quake, they found themselves serving at a hospital where they saw every injury imaginable.

Susan Walsh describes their experience as that of a Mobile Army Surgical Hospital (MASH unit.) People were missing limbs, losing blood at a life-threatening rate, and so much more. Many of the people in the hospital were dead. Her team did the best they could to treat injuries for 6 or 7 hours after the quake, but the number of people requiring treatment was enormous.

Because of the condition of the airport and the chaos, their team—which was supposed to leave the day after the quake—was stranded in Haiti for several extra days. Their ordeal of trying to get out of the country was nightmarish.

She also goes on to describe the trips she made back to Haiti following the quake. The very last chapter gives a very good analysis of where things stand in Haiti today, including the issues that have been dealt with, and the issues that have not been resolved.

I really appreciated the book because it not only gave an excellent first-hand account of an earth-shattering (literally) event that nearly every person in Haiti bears scars from, but it also gives a great look into the tremendous needs of the Haitian people. The issues are complex, sticky, and difficult to deal with. At times it feels like the mess has gotten so big, it can never be cleaned up.

But God is still sovereign over all. He will use tragedies such as the 2010 earthquake for HIS glory and to make HIS Name famous in Haiti. Susan Walsh does a great job of sharing her personal testimony and how God worked in her life through all the situations she was a part of in Haiti.

I definitely recommend this book for anyone high-school aged and up, particularly those who are considering medical missions work. Parts of the story are heartbreaking, but I think our hearts need to be broken more often, because brokenness brings us to a point of action.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Half a Gospel


“We can be grateful for the many kind, caring, generous Rotarians, Lions, Boy Scouts, and the like who do great acts of kindness in the world. But the motive is as important as the strategy. The good deeds of Christians, done in response to God’s call, provide both physical and spiritual hope for the needy. Nelson Bell, the well-known missionary doctor said, ‘If you separate evangelism and social action, you have only delivered half a gospel.’”

David C. Forward in “The Essential Guide to the Short Term Mission Trip”

Friday, May 17, 2013

Haitian Proverb


Here is another Haitian proverb about important people:

M’ pap soti zan zorey pou m’al nan talon.

“I’m not going to leave the ear to go on the heel.” I already have access to someone more important.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

So . . . Where Are We Going?


This was an email update I sent out recently to Hope Hill Orphanage Building Project Supporters. I wanted to post it here so you all could know what was going on with our plan to go on a missions trip this summer.

My word. I hardly know where to begin! This past month has been a confused blur with dozens of changes in plans being made. I’ve almost given up trying to explain it to people, but confusing as it is, it is the story God is writing in my life right now.

Last month the plan was for Ben and I to spend a month in Haiti this summer and help host 2 missions teams from A Child’s Hope, a missions team from Michigan, and 2 missions teams from Florida.

But then plans started to fall through left and right. On such short notice, we could not get together a team large enough to go on the trips with A Child’s Hope. After exploring several other options, we decided to travel with the missionary’s wife, and serve more as “interns” to the missionaries. But by the time we settled on the plan and she purchased her ticket and gave us her itinerary, the ticket prices had skyrocketed (almost overnight) to $900+.

We talked and prayed as a family about this decision. I just didn’t feel that it would be practicing good stewardship to pay over $600 extra simply to travel to Haiti. That money could go towards another whole plane ticket under normal circumstances, or do a lot of other good things.

The decision to call off our trip to Haiti was difficult, as it had been a year in the making (longer if you count the number of years I had planned to spend a month on the missions field following my high school graduation.) But I had peace knowing that only God could have closed the 5 or 6 doors we thought were open. Clearly He had other plans for our summer.

As these doors were slamming shut one after another, I talked with our youth/Family pastor at church. He mentioned one night in youth group that there were some ways we could serve our church this summer. I emailed and asked about some specific ways we could serve.

I was quite surprised when he called back and said someone had dropped out of the high school missions trip to Guatemala. The deadline to join this trip was months ago, but our pastor thought he might be able to get a ticket for Ben as well, that is if we were interested. I said YES, and began praying specifically that if God did NOT want us to go on this trip that he would be unable to secure a 2nd ticket.

A couple of days later, we received a text saying that our pastor had 2 tickets. We took that as a clear answer to our prayer, and joined the team.

So now Ben and I will be joining a team of 16 from our church from on a missions trip to Guatemala! We will be doing ministry to children, which is my passion. Because we won’t be gone for a whole month, we will also have the opportunity to help out with Vacation Bible School at our church here in Texas (in late June.)

There is a possibility that we may still go on a week-long trip this fall with A Child’s Hope, but those plans are still in the baby stage.

While this change in plans is radical and definitely a surprise (just as much to you as it is to me!), God is so clearly at work. Only HE could have closed all the doors to Haiti and opened up the door to Guatemala. Why He wants us there instead of in Haiti (where my heart truly lies), I don’t know. But I do know this; I desire with all my heart to serve Him joyfully wherever He places me!

I still hope to return to Haiti for a month at some point, perhaps next summer. But for now, I will continue to serve and pray for this special country from home. The amount of money donated towards Hope Hill has continued to climb slowly but surely up to $13,600+. I serve an incredible God who is completely in control and a great provider!

How to Pray for the Hope Hill Orphanage Project:

Please pray in the following ways:

·         Pray that I would listen hard for God’s leading in my life and joyfully follow where He leads, especially as I transition out of high school next month.
·         Please pray that despite the fact that I will not be returning to Haiti this summer, my motivation to serve would not decrease in any way. Pray that my focus will remain on Christ and on the burden He has given me for the Haitian children.
·         Pray for Ben and me as we prepare to go to Guatemala. God has already blessed that change in plans; within 3 days of officially joining the team, we had a third of our support raised! Without sending a single support letter!!

This quote is so appropriate in light of all that’s been going on the past month:

When one door closes another opens. But often we look so long [and] so regretfully upon the closed door that we fail to see the one that has opened for us.” –Helen Keller

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Pushing on a Pull Door


A couple of weeks ago, our family went to see “for KING & COUNTRY” in concert. I had purchased their CD a couple of weeks before that, and really enjoyed the song “Pushing on a Pull Door.” The song describes too well how I feel so often. I think I’m going in the right direction and doing all the right things, only to find that I was “pushing on a pull door.”

If hope is what you're after
I can take it and turn it into rain

Your tears become laughter
I will catch them and turn them back again
I will catch them and twist them back again

When you're upside down, then you see it all
That you spend all your time pushing on a pull door

You made a plan
You think you're in control
You're flying
But you're way too high to fall
And hey man
Check around the corner
Because it's coming
Here's your wakeup call

Don't hear Me coming?
I'm your wakeup call

When you're upside down, then you see it all
Everything's the wrong way around but clearer than before
When you're upside down, then you see it all
That you spend all your time pushing on a pull door

I will shake you
I will make your shattered dreams unwind
Because it's only when it comes to pieces
Only then as time increases
You will find the peace that you've been dying for
You'll realize that all this time
You've been pushing on a pull door
You've been pushing on a pull door

Upside down, then you see it all
Everything's the wrong way around but clearer than before
Oh you know, when you're upside down, then you see it all
That you spend all your time pushing on a pull door

When you're upside down, then you see it all
Everything's the wrong way around but clearer than before
When you're upside down, then you see it all
That you spend all your time pushing on a pull door
Hey, pushing on a pull door

You've been pushing on a pull door

--by “for KING & COUNTRY”